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that, and she did or said," etc. on down the line. It was pretty obvious that they felt that it was due to their skill in persuading, suggesting, maneuvering, etc. (in addition to their natural inborn charm, of course) that earned them the reward they finally got. As another man at the time I naturally assumed that that was the way it was. But now, 30 years later I was able to have the same kind of approach tried on me and therefore came to realize that it is the woman who controls the situation and really the man doesn't do anything but make suggestions that he is interested and willing.

So the whole boy-girl game broke down into a very amusing awareness to me. All the time men think that they are the ones who control things, but all the time the women know that they do. The women know that the men think that they are the determining factors but they don't let the men know that they know and so the whole thing is a game and it is also highly hypocritical. It is a fake insofar as men are proud of doing something that in reality they didn't do, and it's hypocritical in the sense that the women know how it really is and yet pretend, in order to bolster the man's ego, that it was otherwise.

That brings up the subject of a man's ego. Again, there are various techniques among women that one hears about or observes in practice when one is the observer as a man. But they take on quite different appearances when, instead of watching somebody else do something, one has to learn to do it herself. I early learned as a purely practical matter that being too intelligent, knowing too much about a subject, arguing too much, etc., was very unwise if I wished to maintain the gentlemen's attention. I realized therefore, why women often make themselves out to be such innocent, unknowing, naive little things, when half the time they know more about the subject than the man does, or at least as much.

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I also learned to practice the technique which might be sum- marized in the statement, "Oh, you're so wonderful, Mr. Mergatroyd. There are few better ways of keeping a conversation going between a man and a woman than for the woman to evince great interest and ad- miration in the man and what he does and to get him to talking about himself and his accomplishments. The conversation could go on all evening that way. But too much talk on her part about what she does or what she thinks or what she knows, is liable to put a considerable damper on it rather quickly. It has been a fascinating psycho-social ex- perience to see the .world from the other side, watch people's behaviour, not just the behaviour of men towards me as a woman, but

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